◢ The Call Sequel : Chapter 63
it took me almost 2 months to get my documentary started because of the different people and networks i had to talk to first in order to get things rolling . by then , like Dig had said before , we were both back to work on all the things we were responsible for . one thing that i was hyped up for was that somehow it was leaked that i was filming this documentary and Oprah found out then decided to interview me with a one hour special . i decided to have them released the same night back to back .
the first day of filming was like a normal day but with cameras around me , it was still fun letting people see what i do on a day to day basis . for the first day of filming i had a few errands to run like meet up with Xodarap Label . we had got an office in NY and hired some people to work for the label out here since we were no longer in LA , although the LA team still works hard .
" hey sweetheart . " i said to Dig and kissed him when i got to the meeting , then sat by him at the head of the table .
" hey babe . was there traffic on the way here or something ? "
" yeah thats why i had to let you know i was running late . " i replied .
i had let the team know the cameras would be rolling at this meeting just so they weren’t freaked out when the camera squad came in with me .
" so , Jeremy , was there any luck with renting the venues out for these next events ? " i asked since hes our event coordinator .
" yes ive had success with all 5 venues except for one - The J Room . "
" ok well make sure you get on that by next Thursday . we gotta make these deadlines yall . " i replied . " we have Atlanta down for a venue at the Gold Room right ? "
" yes ma’am . " Jeremy replied .
" perf . im excited for that city . "
this meeting was just generally getting updates about where we were standing with these events we were setting up around the country . i assigned certain cities with my guys out here and different cities with my guys in LA . we were trying to do events in different cities just to get the word out there about the label . our 2 artists - Ayanna and Gizmo - were going to perform at each event as well . this would get them major exposure too and a chance for their promo teams to promote their new material . when the meeting was over , everyone left me and Dig in the room as we took days to pack up our laptops and stuff .
" did you let the babysitter know we need her this weekend ? " i asked .
" shit . i knew i was forgetting to call somebody ." he said then pulled his phone out .
" its so last minute now babe shes not gonna be available . "
" yes she is . watch . " he replied as he waited for her to answer , then somehow sweet talked his way into having her babysit . " told you . "
" whatever . " i replied . " but i gotta go run some more errands so i’ll see you when i get home . youre cooking dinner , right ? "
" when did we agree to this ? "
" just now . thanks love you . " i smiled then kissed him .
" sure why not sweetheart . " he sarcastically said . " love you too . "
as i walked away i swear i felt his eyes glued on my butt until i finally left the room then got in the elevator with the camera crew .
" he was staring at my ass wasnt he ? " i asked then camera men and they all nodded their heads and laughed . " i cant with him . " i said and laughed .
there were alot of days filming as i balanced my life as a mother and a business woman, handling things with the label and clothing line in addition to taking the kids to school and taking care of them . they caught me and my clothing line at a good time cus it was fashion week and we were a part of it again this year , so they filmed all the madness in preparing for the show . i still had my other little documentary with Oprah that had to be done , so my cameras caught that as well when it was the day of filming with her .
" i think i’ve been waiting my whole career for this . " i said and laughed as i sat down on the couch .
" why is that ? " she asked and also laughed .
" because i’ve had so much things going on, good and bad, that i’ve wanted cleared up . not that anyone really needs to know my business like that or anything , but i dont like anything wrong about me in the media . if they gonna talk bad about me atleast get the facts right , yaknow ? "
" completely understood . " she said and smiled .
45 minutes later after our make up was touched up and they were ready to shoot , we started to film .
" November 11th 2011 " Oprah said after we talked about my childhood for a bit .
" November 11th 2011 . " i said and couldnt help but cheese hard .
" for the people watching that dont know that date please explain . "
" the day that is significant to me on a whole bunch of levels . "
" & why is that ? "
" well , my favorite memory of that day is because i met the love of my life . "
" & also the day that changed your life . "
" i dont necessarily like it to have that title , because i wasnt in it for that reason . i didnt wake up that morning like ’ ahh yes , the day that changes my life forever ’ yaknow ? "
" but you didnt really wake up thinking that you’d meet the love of your life either , right ? "
" i did . i knew i would meet Dig that day . what i didnt know is that i would have such a connection when meeting him . of course every girl’s fantasy at the time upon meeting him was for that to happen but i was never the one to hope too much and get my hopes up high . at the time i always kept my dreams pretty realistic, so falling in love definitely was not on the schedule . "
" oh ok then . & so you thought it was just gonna be a normal meet and greet and all then you would just continue on with your life ? "
" exactly . thought it was gonna be a hello goodbye take a picture real quick and move along so every one else can get their meet and greet in , but nah sparks was flying between us . " i said and laughed .
" right and before you know it you were exchanging numbers with him . "
" i kinda already had his number in my phone but it wasnt saved … "
" what ?! "
" lemme explain . " i said and laughed , then explained the ustream call when i first talked to Dig .
" so he slipped up on the right one then "
" exactly cus if that was a crazy fan he would’ve been screwed . " i laughed .
" so before you know it you were talking to him longer than a meet and greet would last , should i say . "
" yup . hell , before i knew it i was his girlfriend , his first love , then his babymama . "
" i can only imagine how crazy that was . "
" girl . " i said and rolled my eyes . " between the time span of first meeting Dig to a month or two after the birth of the baby , was the craziest year of my life . "
" that was only a year’s span ? "
" yes ma’am . when i tell you Daniel and I were completely in love with each other … man . we were only 15 and 16 at the time so most people would be like ’ yall dont know what love is ’ , but we knew . we knew we felt something for each other we havent felt for anyone else before . ever . "
" but at the time of your pregnancy , werent you dating someone else ? "
" yes . i think its safe to say , now that its years later , that i still loved Dig even though i was in a relationship with someone else . & he still loved me . there was some time in between those nine months that i absolutely hated him but deep down i was still in love with the boy . i was carrying his baby so obviously some love still lied there somewhere . "
" & i know you had s till birth , i believe . correct me if im wrong . "
" no it wasnt a still birth . she was alive and breathing when she was born , but she was born with a heart condition and her only being a newborn couldnt handle it and she shortly passed away two days after birth . "
" that had to be a really tough time for you two and your families . "
" definitely . nothing was the same for me after that for a while . i wasnt the same . Dig wasnt the same . my family and his were there for us completely but i just was so …. disoriented . i distanced myself from everyone for atleast 2 weeks after the birth . everyone besides Dig was with me cus he stayed to comfort me . that was the moment where we both really needed each other , even though i was still stuck in a different state of mind and not talking or hardly eating he was still with me . "
" your boyfriend at the time wasnt with you ? "
" no . his manager wanted him to get back to work in the studio and all that again cus he had a lot to do . he figured that i needed to be with Dig at a time like this anyways , so he left . to make matters worse , we broke up not too much longer after the birth . i wanna say like 2 weeks later we ended our relationship . i think i was going through a depression stage at that point . nothing was going for me around then . i wrote one of the saddest songs ive ever wrote to this day still after the break up and was just isolated from everyone for a while . it was a really rough time for me . "
" wow you poor thing . life just wasnt going smooth at all . "
" AT ALL . " i replied . " but a while later i realized isolating myself wasnt healthy for me . i needed to get out of that phase . remembering a conversation Lil Wayne and I had months prior , i called him and completed a deal he had mentioned to me before , so he flew me out to Florida not too much later , woke my ass up with all the work he had for me and from then on he molded this amazing star that i am today . "
" so make sure you let anyone who is a fan of yours or even like only one of your songs to thank Lil Wayne for that . " she laughed .
" exactly . " i also laughed . " thats why i would do anything for that man . at that point in my life he really saved me . i love Wayne to pieces . "
the interview continued as we talked about tthe trials and tribulations , but also the many positive things that i’ve faced in my life .
" so what i wanna know is what Dig did to get you back . like after the divorce what led to you two dating again and everntually getting married ? "
" he’s a very smooth and slick guy . " i answered and she laughed . " no seriously . " i replied and also laughed . " he’s really slick when he talks to females . i would only know this because we were just friends at a point in time so i would see how he would interact with other ladies . but as far as getting me back he’d be real nice to me and kinda be real secretive at times but the fact that we’ve known each other for years at that point i’d call him out and be like ’ why are you talking like that ? ’ like im really dumb at times so it wasnt getting me to that he was tryna be slick and ask me out . he everntually gave up on tryna be slick and on the low and began getting just straight to the point when asking me out on dates and things of that sort . of course he still kept it romantic and classy cus thats the type of guy he is . "
" wow so there was still some effort that was put into that . "
" oh defintely . just cus youve had me once doesnt mean that im easy to get back okay . " i replied and laughed .
" & how long were you guys dating before he proposed ? "
" about 2 or 3 years . if i hadnt already gone through a divorce before that then we would been engaged much sooner most likely , considering all the years already put into our relationship and simply because we always took things to the next level pretty quickly , but because i was still wounded from my first marriage i wanted some more time before i thought about another marriage . "
" completely understandable . " she responded .
it was fun talking to Oprah about everything . she was so cool to talk to honestly . at the end of the interview we were talking all about my family .
" this cover is still my favorite cover of Ebony magazine EVER. the cutest thing in the world . not to mention your guys’ interview and pictures with the kids in them . " this is literally the whole family minus the youngest one . "
" actually he’s there . i had just found out i was pregnant with him not too long before this so he was defintely in my belly at the time . " i smiled .
" aww that just makes me love this even more ! " she exclaimed as i laughed . " how are the kids doing by the way ? i hope you recieve the package i sent with all those books . "
" yes i did recieve them thank you so much . theyre already learning how to read in preschool so before i know it they’ll have all those books read in no time . " i answered . " oh and they’re doing wonderful . the happeist little kids ever . thats one thing in life i would never want to take away is their happiness . "
" what does the future hold for you and Diggy ? expansion of the family ? "
" oh defintely . its funny cus the last time i was in labor i swore to God that i wasnt having any more kids after this considering i was going on my 4th kid and i was dead serious when i was telling Dig and he was agreeing with me only to shut me up cus he wants more kids and he knew that wouldnt be the last time im in that position . " i said and laughed . " but its funny cus as time goes on i miss having newborns and the kids are growing up so fast I’m like ’ where are my little babies at ? ’ you know so i do want another kid . we’ve talked about it already but we’re still pushing that back a little . if it happens sooner than so it be . "
once the interview was over i gave Oprah a huge hug and thanked her so much for allowing me to do this . its not everyday when chances like that come around .
continuing with my own documentary , i was at that point where i’d sit down and watch it all with an interviewer with me and just evaluate and talk about all the things in the video as it played . we did that part in the luxury of my own home .
i was a part of the production team so i was initializing what were to get edited out of the video and was was being kept in it to be showed . some of the things filmed didnt really need to be filmed , so i made sure to take that out but the parts i wanted the world to see for sure were the ones i kept in . within the next two months , it was completed and the date of airing it on tv was appraoching soon . i was nervous to let the world see my day to day life and have the kids in the videos as well , but this is what i wanted and i had to remember why i wanted to do it . the night it aired we had a viewing party at the house in the theater and hooked it up to the cable and TV so we were watching the first airing of it the same time as everyone else . the Oprah interview came on first and following hers was my documentary . i was really excited for both to premiere on the same night .
" hey Pharoah how did you get on the tv ? " Jaheem asked when he saw him .
" you guys are on tv ! " Lani exclaimed as the next clip was all the boys together .
they had me crackin up as they watched themselves on tv and were just so amazed and shocked that they were up there .
all the hardwork put in was worh it .